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	2009.06.23  19.11 life is interesting at the moment... we found out on memorial day that dad has kidney cancer. we've been treating it and dealing with some issues in his lung, but after some surgery and a rather long (unwanted) stay at st. joseph's hospital we got that taken care of finally. dad is on his way to fully recovering and is now going to be taking a form of chemo for the rest of his life in the form of a little pill called sudent? (i think that's the name). i talked to him today and he sounded a lot better than he did on father's day. that's the good thing...he seems better every day. so we'll make it....no doubt. he's too much of a stubborn old man to lay down and let this shit win. i have since moved to athens. i'm living with paige, and i actually love it! i've never thought of living with a girlfriend as a good thing. but this rules. yes, i am farther away from all my friends, but i live with my best friend. things don't get much better. our apartment looks awesome. (we have dan mccarthy prints all over the living room.) we watch the braves games together and relax a lot. it's awesome. the new darkest hour rules. i had to break down and buy an xbox since austin took his when he moved. but it's cool, i got it on the cheap. now i get to re-beat skate 2. which is what i'm going to continue doing at the moment. oh yeah....last night we went out at about midnight with some of paige's friend and ended up at toppers. it was free if you were over 21 and fucking hilarious! some of the ugliest strippers i have ever seen! hahahahahaha and dudes were into it. apparently some guy from real world was there last night. SWEET!

	2009.05.17  00.22 This weekend has been great so far. (kinda started with stuff on thursday) Nate's graduation was awesome on Thursday. The large consumption of sushi afterward was even better! Now we are going to (and I quote Nate), "Piss on these pieces of paper and start a band!" Austin's graduation was Friday. Awesome! My lady is in town and we've been having a great time. Last night we all hung and ate at the Varsity and got F.O.s! TOOOO GOOD! Today Josh took us to a great sammich shop in Marietta. We just hung out and and went around town looking for Paige some work clothes after that, and I got another sick hat to wear all the time now! This evening we hung out with the parents, had dinner, and then I beat everyone's ass in some fun Wii Fit games.....until Paige decided it was her turn to step it up and beat the shit out of my score on this ski jump game. It's cool....I can hula-hoop it like a son of a gun! I'm gonna buy and xbox tomorrow, cause Austin is moving all his shit out and I'm gonna be bored. haha. but now it's time for bed (even though I'm wide awake). I want to go lay down though cause I have the most goregous gal around asleep in my bed. Tomorrow is the Roam Alone cover photo shoot. I'm so pumped. I'll post photos soon.

	2009.05.13  22.45 So I saw X-Men Origins: Wolverine tonight. It was a great movie! Buuuuuuut.....big time story holes all over the place. My Main problem was Wolverine and Sabertooth......NOT BROTHERS!!!! Actually they have no relation, from what I remember. That and Deadpool (Wade Wilson) was never ever ever made into Weapon XI, and I don't recall a Weapon XI progarm after the Weapon X program went to shit due to Wolverine destroying everyting. Deadpool dead receive the healing factor that both Wolverine and Sabertooth have...but no until waaaaaay later. Whatever....the movie was still bad ass, and it was ton better than X-Men III. We are almost done printing 140 shirts (70 being front/back designs) for Chef Paul and Patrick of Social Vinings and Paul's (two very big restaurants in Atlanta). Hopefully they like the work, and keep coming back. We also got our Short Fuse screen printing business cards today, and they look great! I got some great news from Paige today about a conversation she had with her dad. He doesn't approve but said she's an adult. Game on, I think it's going to be awesome. I just hope I don't annoy her with all my crap that I have and my music. I love her, and she loves me so why wouldn't it be a good thing. Plus we can listen to records and lay around with each other all the time! It sounds like a great idea to me. Next week I have a very important photo shoot for a ceremony that my dad is going to be a part of at Atlantic Station (well the arch that's next to it). I'm not getting paid, unfortunately, but I will be the only still photographer and it could bring a lot of work! I hope I don't screw it up. Also, next week I have real work that I'm going to be making money on. Finally! I'm doing photos/layout/design for the Roam Alone 7" that's coming out this summer. I'm so stoked. I've pretty much been full creative freedom with this one. I've been working with Blake to come up with a really solid idea to make a great looking cover and inside artwork for them. I just hope it all turns out like it looks in my head. I'm listening to Lie and Wait....I'm sad this band broke up. They are some great friends and I know it's going to be hard to see them now that neither one of our bands are together and touring. I need to make a trip to Texas, I just wish I could have for their last show. TOTAL BUMMER! OUR WORLD DECAYS!

	2009.04.22  15.37 Today has been pretty good so far. I got up and took the dog for a nice long walk, which rules cause the weather was gorgeous. Talked to mom about some things that could be happening in the near future. She agrees that it's a good thing. I ate a pizza and watched the HULK (the most recent one with Edward Norton) and it was awesome! Tonight we are printing CROSSED t-shirts at the ShortFuse kitchen/print space. haha. 50 shirts, up and down. This is gonna rule. I'm so pumped for this weekend. Paige and I are going up to Charlotte. It's gonna be sweeeeeet. We are following/meeting the guys from ROAM ALONE and CROSSED for a show they have with NATIONS in Charlotte. It's gonna be fun to be in Paige's city with her friends and my friends. I'm stoked to eat at the Penguin and go to Lunchbox records. Mainly I'm excited for spending time in the car with Paige. Our road trips are so fun! We will also be making a trip to N.C. next month as well to see the CRO-MAGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy shit, I'm so excited. Music: Roam Alone

	2009.03.30  00.07 You said that I'm afraid to die With a pitchfork ready and a man who sits up high And I can hear the fire I'm a dead dog sinner and a man too scared to try And you're too close to call I would sell my money for the chance to hear you talk And oh no, I tried I tried What if you could see my skin? Would you burn me moving? Would you make a match out my head? What if you could touch my hand? Feel the deep sweat sweating from a guilty, guilty man What if you could see my heart? Would you say oh brother, that's the reason we still fall And the reason that we still don't start? And oh no, I tried I tried i was just about to go to bed. this song came on and i've been listening to it on repeat for about the 3rd time in a row now. there's something about it that i catch every time i listen to it that stands out different from the time before. that part made so much sense to me this time around. i'd give anything to be with paige and have hear voice running through my ears. i'm gonna give it one more go around. then it's bed time.

	2009.03.27  23.44 i hope i get that job. i'm not into spending my weekends in a restaurant that i'm not even eating at, while my lady is all by herself in another city. i'm driving back to athens tomorrow cause i can't stand being away from her. it was hard enough leaving this morning...but it's so easy going back. i love her. all those times before, have never felt like this. it's been a year and i'm still just as happy as the day i first held her hand and she embarrassed me because i had chocolate ice cream all over my face with out a clue. is it such a bad thing that the only thing that makes me happy on a daily basis is my best friend that i'm completely in love with? hell no. it rules.

	2009.03.27  15.41 break it open today wasn't a bad at all. i was sad when i had to leave paige this morning when i dropped her off for class. the drive home was just stupid. so much rain, and so many idiots on the road. those two don't work well together. hung out, ate lunch, watched the office. then, at 2 i left for my job interview with the reflective apparel factory. they need a production artist. i'd be doing graphic design stuff, photography, and a little bit of help with the website. well, that'd be my main tasks. other than that i'd be helping with shipping sometimes, and the actual produciton of art onto some of the product. i'm totally down with this. a stable paycheck, reasonable hours (i can't do this weekend shit anymore), and they bring their dogs to work. too bomb! and it's 10 mins up the road. not too shabby. they said i'm the leading candidate for the job as of now, and they have a few other people to interview. i'll know by the beginning of this coming week whether or not i got the job.....here's to hoping. now i gotta go to work. i hope it's not too busy. at least derek is working with me. he's a pretty cool kid. hopefully some of the servers working tonight are the ones i get a long with well. war hungry still rules. been listening to bane alllllll day. i'm really pissed at myself for not going to United Blood in Richmond this weekend. but, fuck if i get a job out of it for not going...my ass is definitely going to try and go to sound and fury!

	2009.03.25  15.19 my brain was officially melted last night. this movie ruled. got a job interview doing some simple graphic design stuff. craig's list pays off, that's for sure. hopefully i can get this job, get enough hours (since it's part time) to quit the restaurant. cause it definitely will pay more than what i'm getting right now...just as long as i get enough hours. if not, i'll just have two jobs.

	2009.03.24  18.00 if my paychecks are going to look like this i'm not going to be doing well for too much longer after my clear channel paychecks run out...actually, i just did some math in my head. if i didn't have money saved up from my clear channel checks i'd be straight fucked. i need another job, more hours, or a new job all together that will pay me more. thankfully i'm moving in with nate and rick when my lease is up here....that will be awesome on my bank account. i hope that doesn't fall through. normally i'm stoked when i get a pay check. but honestly....i just became very fucking depressed. i gotta dig myself out of this fucking hole i'm in.

	2009.03.18  18.27 after work today i took the dog for a car ride and got some lunch. it was a nice day, a good day to ride around with the windows down. she loved it. came home, watched this is england. great movie. weird, very dramatic, but i thought really good. can't get this damn song off my mind: "there's no place for me." a man of nowhere, a man of black heart from the dead end streets. "regret runs through me. i am no one, i am nothing, i am a man of defeat. what's left for me?" he thought of those open roads, his mother praying alone, that vagrant anthem and the field sung hymns, the cowardice forever following him. "what's left for me? the world has turned it's back on me. there's no place for me." a sullen walk to the chapel stairs. "regret runs through me." a hard pull on that white oak door to face up those fears. "what brings you here my son?" "i've been a horrible man. i killed my father, i killed my brother, i left my mother in your god's hands." "clasp your hands and count your sins. kneel at the pew." and so the sermon begins. "no judgment cast down this day, will set you free. you are forgiven my son, you are blessed and redeemed. you've found absolution here son, but only from me." "what's left for me?" a sullen walk to the steeple top to look over the city. he carves his name in that old brass bell, so when it rings he can hear it in hell. one last look to that western sky, one last wish he could have changed his life. "i ain't no wicked man." he let his fleet slip from under him. unwanted. defeater is real good.

	2009.03.16  16.38 is there a place for me... so my stay at the restaurant business my be shorter lived than i thought. my mom called me today and said that a friend's son in law works at a company that's hiring. i'd be doing sales, but fuck for 40k a year i'll do it. i'm just hoping once i get the info on the job and submit my resume that all goes well. i wouldn't mind a stable schedule and my weekends off again. that was too good. on a different note. i got tattooed friday. everyone needs a friday the 13th "13" tattoo right....? the dude that did the tattoo is named Chuck Donoghue and he's moving to atlanta soon to work at only you tattoo. i'm totally going to get him to do the oil lantern on the inside of my arm that i've been wanting to finish my halfsleeve out. he said he's real into doing creepy stuff and i think his style would blend well with my owl. we'll see.... listening to defeater puts weird thoughts in my head. not sick thoughts, but weird. i question lots of stuff. this record is so good. it kind of makes me look at my life from an outsiders perspective. it's not all that bad on the outside, but on the inside i fight with so much. on a completely different note, i have the perfect girl and best friend. but i'm constantly questioning myself asking if i'm even the slightest bit good enough for her. if i didn't have her i'd be fucking lost and alone.

	2009.03.06  16.15 had my interview today. got the job. i'm supposed to go fill out paperwork on monday...thing is i'm not going to be in town. i really hope the dude emails me back saying it's cool that i come in early tuesday to fill out paper work. i need a damn job.

	2009.03.05  14.49 days pass, weeks pass i have a job interview tomorrow. it's a restaurant as a food runner. whatever. it's a job, and it's not even a mile away. it's right at the entrance to my apartment complex actually. so hopefully i'll get it and start making some money.

	2009.03.04  22.08 defeater is real good. i can't stop listening to the new lp travels. this song in particular... that soap box song stuck in his head. burdens lie in graves past by. he carries his weight. that anthem for the disenchanted rings loud in waves of grain. heavy hearted hymns heard in slums fade out on those country roads. hope burning in his lungs. days pass, weeks pass. sleeping under sky. days pass, weeks pass. days turn into nights. sleep sound, the sun's out. sleep long, sleep well. days pass, weeks pass. memories come flooding back, he prays his mother's god has saved her soul. that soap box song still in his head. miles lost to heat and rain. he carries his weight. that message for the misdirected rings true to this day. heavy hearted hymns sung in fields. he stops along that country road to listen as they sing. "swing low, swing low chariot for me. swing low, swing low. pray my soul to keep." "rest now, the sun's down. rest long, rest well." "swing low, swing low." redemption lies in an old farm house, "room and board for the strong hands we need. all i can offer is roof over head. another day, another dollar."

	2009.02.26  10.35 King of the Beavers, you can't deceive us and you can't fool OWLS! so i've been watching this video for the past 10 mins. it doesn't change, but i can't stop. i feel like this is something rusty would like. i dunno. but if you're reading this, put your headphones on at work and listen to this jam and watch this video. note: it never stops! it just repeats. hahahaha. http://www.weebls-stuff.com/toons/Owls/ so good!

	2009.02.25  22.40 dead weight, swingin'n from the end of my own little rope i can't really say how much Go It Alone (and the Histories ep/lp) has been affecting me lately. it's helped me write, and i feel so damn connected with the lyrics. i can't stop listening to this band. i'm determined as hell to get a job. i need to, seriously. i can't rely on the past anymore, none of that will change or help my position now. "Can I retrace my steps? Walk backwards through the years to the one I used to be? Blow the dust from the antiquated memories? I can't see clearly through the fog of time, but I'm starting to make out the shapes. Squinting through a daze of days that passed me by. I'm a sucker for a stroll down memory lane and I've been sitting idle, its time to stretch these legs. I'm brushing cobwebs from the corners of my mind. I'm reading the hidden text between my own lines. I'm uncovering. I'm sifting through. Digging up relics of the past. I'm ignoring my own advice: I'm looking back."

	2009.01.21  10.21 some things just fall apart. ha. it's been a while. i guess thins were going just too well. yesterday at 8:30am i worked for a company that was really great to me, and for me. i had comfortable pay, reasonable hours, and a great group of people to work around. at 9:00am that changed. i was tapped on the shoulder, asked to follow, and sat down in the conference room with three men i've come to know very well over the last 7 months. the first words our of chris' mouth were, "this is not going to be an easy or good meeting at all." he then proceeded to tell me how clear channel was being forced to make a budget cut along the lines of $400 million in expenses, resulting in the cuttiong 1,850 jobs. one of those being mine. i was left in shock with an envelope the helped explain everything, and a small severance. i've since spent my time wondering, cursing, and staring. this morning i woke up early, mainly because i can't sleep past 8. i'm usually at work by then. i didn't know what to do for myself. i laid in bed looking at the ceiling. pulled myself up, grabbed my computer and updated my resume as much as i could, then sent it to my dad to proofread. it's time to get myself together and find another job. broke down and beaten, another day will surely rise.

	2008.10.23  14.36 lots to be stoked on right now. job rules, still. last night's show was siiiiiiiiick. ceremony killed it! blacklisted is still one of my favorite bands, and have heart absolutely floored me last night. let down is angry as all get out, and it ruled. swamp thing was awesome. hardcore rules. listening to violation a lot. and i get to see h2o, bane, and cruel hand in two weeks! i've been jamming awesome music all day. i can't wait to see alpha&omega, fc5, bracewar, cloack/dagger on thursday. gonna own! this weekend is gonna be KILLER!!! a weekend away, out of georgia, with paige! we are going to charlotte for the weekend to hang out with her momma and all her friends in charlotte. i'm taking my camera do some photos while i'm there. hopefully something sweet comes from it. more of the 100 strangers project that i've been working on for sure. and the dog is coming with us....it's her first road trip!

	2008.10.06  23.36 probably one of my favorite songs that the avett brothers played the other night. oddly enough, it was only seth avett and his guitar up there and everyone singing along. I've never taken this curve Drivin' this fast before A glowing stop sign But both lanes are mine No seat belts attached to my door Well my speed meter don't work So I'm going to guess ninety-five Well maybe I'll fix it And maybe I won't It depends on my being alive Well my bottle of bourbon is gone See it flew away all by itself So if ever you find it My photo will go behind it In memory of me on your shelf Well it's been raining all day And it's been raining all night A slip 'n slide highway And I'm moving sideways I'm loose but my steering wheels tight Well my '63 Ford Galaxy's a bull See it's four thousand pounds at least But metal surrenders When oak trees meet fenders And engines go through the front seat Well I lost control in the curve And a gas line broke in the wreck I walked from the ashes With just a few scratches My crucifix warm on my neck Well the good Lord was with me tonight Just ridin' beside me tonight And now we're just talking We're just hitch hiking walkin' We'll see you tonight i wish i was with someone (the only person i could imagine myself with) right now, doing this. but minus the drinking and driving and wrecking into trees. but more of smiling and driving fast with out a care in the world. holding hands and laughing, driving aimlessly through the night. tomorrow is to far away!

	2008.09.24  22.19 pinback in athens last night was so insanely awesome. i also got to purchase a double lp of blue screen life and i'm so stoked on that. spending the night in athens with paige was probably even better than the show itself. it's not fair when we spoil ourselves like this during the week. i do have to say waking up at 5 in the morning to be home by 6 to get ready for work and then nap until 7:30 was not exactly how i would like to end the trip....but i gots to work and make some moneys.

	2008.09.03  19.01 nothing beats vans...and the suicide machines Well, youre just like a club fag wearing Doc Martens Get a pair of chukas or some checkerboard slip-ons Worship Jeff Spicoli not Chris Cornell Get a pair of Vans or God will send you to Hell To Hell You think Doc Martens are the coolest invention Listen | Buy Since someone sliced a loaf of bread in someone elses kitchen The plain truth is that you just plain suck So why should I tell you not to waste a hundred bucks Vans in my head Vans on my feet My sole is on the ground when Im walking down the street 2, 3, 4 Dont wear no Doc Martens Cant wear no Birkenstocks Just a crummy old pair of chuka boots and a smelly old pair of socks If you want to wear them you dont have to ride a skateboard You can even wear them with a pair of old cords Someonell probably tell you that theyre not in trend Just tell them thats the reason why you dont have any friends No friends I dont wanna hear about alternative footwear And I dont wanna hear about your new hair-do I dont give a shit about you stupid motherfuckers Cause I just wanna get a pair of olive green chukas! Vans in my head Vans on my feet My sole is on the ground when Im walking down the street 2, 3, 4 Dont wear no Doc Martens Cant wear no Birkenstocks Just a crummy old pair of chuka boots and a smelly old pair of socks Vans in my head Vans on my feet My sole is on the ground when Im walking down the street 2, 3, 4 Dont wear no Doc Martens Cant wear no Birkenstocks Just a crummy old pair of chuka boots and a smelly old pair of socks

	2008.08.14  14.20 i'm kind of in love.... She's as sweet as the summer time And strong as the sunshine And I don't want to know her I let myself down I'm cold as a winter's storm I'm soft as a grind stone And I can't do a thing To flag my life down Why do you amaze me? Why do you amaze me? Why do you fool me into thinkin' that I'm kind of in love with you? She's good as a mystery A salesman for misery And I am bankrupt In debt to my knees Big brown eyes and curly hair I wonder if she sees me stare I can't say why I've fallen Babe, please have mercy Why do you amaze me? Why do you amaze me? Why do you fool me into thinkin' that I'm kind of in love with you? We sink like a ball and chain If I knew more than your first name Those eyes you got can't fool me I know how this goes We'd wrap ourselves in conversation You tell lies and try my patience Bite my tongue in frustration Or you slap my face Why do you amaze me? Why do you amaze me? Why do you fool me into thinkin' that I'm kind of in love with you?

	2008.07.20  15.12 back in middle school all i cared about was the fact that this was a sweet punk/ska band...now going back and listening to some of the songs on this mighty mighty bosstones cd it's a totally different experience. "a dollar and a dream" I had a dollar I wanted to save. Safe in my pocket, I'll try to hold fast. Hey! It might be my last. I know what I've got folded safe in its spot. I earned a dollar, it's not here to share. I've got a dollar and that's all I've got. A million more is just a single grain. A grain of sand or just one drop of rain. A small amount might make the difference these days. A dollar and a dream is all I could raise. To all the questions I've ever asked myself, Man, what a dream, it sure felt great. Took to the streets 'cause I couldn't wait. To freely give wisdom and share what I know. I had a dream and that's all I had. A million here lay down in pain every night. A million there to stay alive and fight. I'm sure my numbers underestimate. A dollar and a dream, I swear it's not too late. I had a dollar I wanted to save. Keep in my pocket, I held fast. A dollar bill that I would take to my grave. Deep in my pocket like it was my last. Look for the dollar, now it's not there. Even the pants are a different pair. I earned the dollar, I had to share. I had a dollar and that's all I had. A million more is just a star in the sky. Tip of the iceberg but we've all got to try. Our work's cut out and there's work to be done. A dollar and a dream is step number, step number one

	2008.06.22  12.22 well it's done. austin and i are official ITP. it rules. the new apartment is sick! we got the internet and the netflix accounts set up today. the first movie on our list is the new RAMBO followed by WEEDS season 1, and a lot of other sweet ass movies! it's way cheaper than cable and i can pick what i want to watch, hell yeah! i've got all my stuff ready to fix my bike to a good riding condition. i just need to go down the street to the bike shop and get new tubes. life is pretty sweet right now. got a new job. i'm on salary, and i'll get benefits and all that shit. what the hell.....i'm an adult! FUCK! at least i'm doing photos, and for a fortune 500 company. it's not the most glamours job. but, it's a start and it will pay the bills! on top of that i have a fugging sweet roommate, girlfriend, and dog. today i'm going downtown to have lunch with the fam and i'm gonna run by h&m if i have time before i go do a freelance gig for creative loafing. so here's some photos from the new apartment that i just took. i just got some stuff put up in my room, but i have more photos that i'm picking up today that i'm going to hang from some work i did at school. my final, of the multiple exposures that turned out really awesome. some are going in my room and some in the living room above the couch. but other than that we are pretty much settled in: home simpson chia pet that is in progess....a must have for every new apartment. us and the neighbor's porches. my gal and my dog after a long sweaty day of moving. nap-time shortly followed this photo. that empty wall be filled tonight. pita posing for a shot with the closet that's still color coded!

	2008.06.09  22.05 twice in one day. weird. well, i just took my new bike out for it's first adventure. i ran up to the grocery store for things needed a good bit for dinner and lunch for work. it was a pretty easy ride, but i can't wait to convert my bike from just a regular single speed to a fixed gear. that and i realized the bag that i have is a little small...so knowing that i was doing pretty well with my money, and that i get paid on friday i went ahead and ordered a new bag tonight. it's a lot bigger (from what rusty told me....who was buying beer at the grocery store i was at and decided to shop with me) so i'm going to be able to actually get more than what i got tonight....which was actually a good bit i think. i got 2 pizzas, pop tarts, granola bars, a pasta thing for the skillet, bread, chips, easy mac for the lunch at work. i pretty much got stuff that will last me a good while. but i'm stoked on the new bag. plus it was shaking all over the place when i was riding back, and the actual messenger style one will strap to my body and not shake. whatever. i'm at home watching the original kings of comedy right now, and cedric the entertainer is funny as hell. the only time he turns his music down when he drives is when he's parallel parking. i remember watching this my senior year of high school with matt andrews at his house....hahaha, now bernie mac is about to come on!